I don’t like putting a lot of make-up onto my face, and neither does my skin. Problem is that my skin isn’t natural smooth and the same color. No it’s red all over my cheeks and nose, and I turn into a living tomato the moment someone give me a lot of attention. The first one I can sort of live with, but the last one is a huge problem. And the only thing that can combat it is covering my face with foundation, then I just can play it cool even though my cheeks are burning.Continue Reading
I had spent the day at a museum looking at their new exhibition about women’s clothes from 1730’s to present day. After finishing the said exhibition I walked around about an hour around the outside part of the museum. Then I made my way down to the station. My plan was to finish the day of with some yummy frozen yogurt.
As I stod there waiting on my bus to arrive all the sudden this guy came up to me from behind, I haven’t even heard him coming. He looked pretty average, a bit taller than me and lean. At first I didn’t really pay much attention to him since it was around 20 people waiting for the same bus. I just thought he was someone who didn’t understand personal space.
Then he asked me if I knew where this bank was located to which I answered without thinking twice about it. Why would I? I have had people come up to me asking everything from if I knew which bus would take them to their desired location to help them get to the right location. I mean if I was in a place and didn’t know where I was supposed to head I to would ask someone for directions. But then he kept staying beside me and not making any indication what he was supposed to go away. Now I started to get a little confused, why ask for directions and then not go there? Then the thought hit me ‘Stupid, maybe he doesn’t know where that place is you said it laid besides. It’s easy for you to know but not someone else perhaps’. So with that thought I gave him proper directions how to get to the place he asked about thinking now he would leave.Continue Reading
Isn’t it strange how something that you once were part of continue to go forward even after you no longer part of it? This thought just hit me last week when I realized that schools were starting again after the summer break. That all the people taking the bus to go to school, just as I had for the past three years. It’s a really bizarre feeling, but also a bit bittersweet.Continue Reading
Being truly invisible you could anything you wanted, no one would know where you were or even who you were. I loved actually love to be invisible, the right way. Then I would have a good reason why people never seems to listen to me, or noticing my presence. But as it is now I’m just a part of the background, some kind of white noise no one seem to listen to. I hate it, some days I feel like scream just so someone would notice me.
There has been times when I’ve literally been standing next to someone a good 10 minutes and they still jumps into the air all the sudden when they finally notices me, and I’ve been talking to them the whole time…
It could have something to do with me being somewhat shy, but how come other shy people get remember and I don’t? I hate being in this situation, as an extrovert it’s a nightmare. I want to hang out with people and be social, but it’s hard when no one seems to notice or care about me. This leads to a long journey down the whole “Why can’t I just be different?”. Never a good thing to start thinking about 1 am as you need to sleep but ends up crying instead since you just tore yourself to pieces.
What is it with me that makes me so easy to forget? That makes me so easy to just ignore?
Sometimes it really feels like a part of the shadows, or just a low hum background sound no one cares about.
What makes the whole thing worse is that my sister is there as a constant thorn in the side. She doesn’t even want friends yet she’s the one who got them, who get’s invited to events and never is forgotten.
Have you ever experienced anything like this? How did you make yourself get more attention?
A word is just a word, something you put together with other words to form a sentence, or to shout to exaggerate your feelings towards something or someone. But words have meanings, some a deeper than others. And this is something I stumbled across at the beginning of this year.Continue Reading